Journey to a Better Me - Day Two

I've been writing in a journal and along with writing daily I'm also cutting pictures of Rihanna out of magazines to put in the journal.  I'm sure that sounds funny but I think Rihanna is beautiful and I'm hoping that seeing the pictures of her will help keep me motivated.  I don't like what I see when I look in the mirror.  I have to make a change.  I've been overweight all my life and I've come to realize that if I don't change some habits now then I'll continue gaining weight and that cannot happen.  I love my life and I'd love to be able to do even more if I lost weight.  I want to ride on roller coasters without having to worry about if I'll fit or if the locking mechanism will fit around me.  I want to sit on an airplane without needing a seat belt extender.  I want to wear a bathing suit and not feel so self-conscious about the way I look in it.  I'm trying to focus on things other than food.  This is only day two and I'm hoping I can continue to stay focused.  Every time I try to eat better I can always remain focused for a few weeks and then my focus disappears and I'm back to eating whatever whenever.  Hopefully, when I get the urge to overeat I'll use the journal to write about what I'm feeling or craving instead of stuffing my face.  It's interesting how just making the decision to lose weight makes me feel better.  I feel like I'm such a successful person in so many areas of my life and I want to finally be a success in the area of my weight.