Journey to a Better Me - Day One

I'm going to be turning forty this year and I'm really unhappy about my weight and the way I look.  I've just been eating too much and I can't seem to stop it.  The last time when I was watching what I eat when I stopped I started overeating instead of trying to eat more normally.  So, I shouldn't be surprised that I'm gaining weight.  My biggest clothes are getting snug on me.  My knees hurt when I get up from a sitting position.  And don't get me started on my stomach.  I'm tired of the way I look and I'm ready to make a change.  My husband loves me unconditionally and never makes me feel like I need to change the way I look.  I usually don't have trouble losing weight but I have trouble sticking with it.  I'll lose fifteen or so pounds then quit watching waht I eat and this last time I gained back what I had lost plus more.  This is the first time since I've been married that I've really felt down about my weight.  So, I've started writing in a journal and writing down what I'm eating and hopefully something will be different for me this time.  Hopefully, something will click in my brain and I will stay focused instead of so easily getting off track like I've always done before.